This Road

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Never dreamed
Never imagined
This road God would lead us down.

At my bedside
Kneeling
Begging God to hear a prayer.

Head cradled in my arms
Sobs shaking my body
Tears soaking the bedspread.

 I cried out
"Lord, her faith--
so simple
so pure."

"What will happen if you don't answer her prayer to stay here forever?"

The tears release
the pain in my heart.
 The tide of emotion subsides.

In utter honesty I continue,
"Lord, I don't even know if I can do this thing I've asked for."

Scripture ministers
 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight."  Prov. 3:5,6

Words spoken to my heart.
"My daughter, trust me."

Feeling inadequate

The Word reminds
"I can do everything through him who gives me strength." Phil. 4:13

"But Lord, what if we lose them?"
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."  Phil. 4:6,7

Comforted
Filled with peace.

I did not know or understand God's plan.  Even today I'm not sure I do, but I came out of my room that day nearly six years ago knowing in my heart God had a plan.  I had a strong sense that it was much bigger then my mind could grasp.  He was just asking me to "trust Him."

I sit here today overwhelmed at our awesome God.  We celebrated Easter together with Troy, Michael, and Amber's birth parents.  The journey to reunion between parents and their children is one for them to tell.  But it is a powerful reminder of a great reunion between a Creator and his creation.


We were separated
torn away by sin

Undeserving
and unworthy

Lost and
Alone

Reunion
made possible by great sacrifice


Mercy extended
Pardon granted
All forgiven

Brought back
Relationship restored

Whole and healed


This road
we never dreamed
we never imagined.

But God knew
It was in His plan.

Linking up with:  Good Morning Girls 



Comments

  1. Jennifer Dawn McLucasApril 11, 2012 at 2:04 PM

    Love that God led me to this post today (visiting from Good Morning Girls)- we just said "yes" to adopting our nephew. I'm bookmarking your blog, I'm sure it's one I'll want to visit again in the coming months. Blessings to you, Jennifer

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  2. Mom Of ManyApril 19, 2012 at 2:15 AM

    It wouldn't be faith if we knew the road. And His path is far more amazing then our best planned road would be. So thankful for His faithfulness and thank you for sharing.

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  3. StevieApril 18, 2013 at 12:38 PM

    I found you from Raising Arrows and I know it was meant. Our children are adopted. Our oldest we adopted when he was 13 and he's now 15. It's challenging, but I trust in Him.

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    1. NatashaApril 18, 2013 at 8:37 PM

      May God richly bless you for stepping out and adopting older children. No, it is not easy, but they deserve a home too. Saying a prayer for you and your challenges right now. Thank you for visiting my blog.

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