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Sometimes I feel like I'm living disconnected in a connected world. We have access to much entertainment, information, education, and even socialization through just a click of a button in the on-line world. We are connected to anything and anyone in less then a second of time.
But I find my thoughts throughout the day going something like this:
- "Break time from school. Yes! I'm just going to take a second and check my Facebook page. Then I'll get that load of laundry started." Next thing I know 15 minutes has passed and I'm scrambling to get the kids back to work and, oops, the laundry gets forgotten.
- The kids are busy working on seatwork. Papers need graded, but "I'm just going to take a second and check if my friend answered my message. Oh wow, look at all the responses to my post." Soon voices of children break into my world. I tell them just a moment so I can finish reading. Then I scramble to get my mind focused on what we're supposed to be doing next in school.
- Lunch is on the table. I'm waiting for my husband to get home. Better check my e-mail. "Oh, there's one I'd better answer." Forgot to stir the chili keeping warm on the stove. Kinda scorched it to the bottom of the pan. Guess maybe I should have left the e-mail for later.
It's like the on-line world is a magnet. It consumes my thoughts and every free minute. I'm always wondering who might have written me. I'm wondering what friend posted new pictures of their baby. I even wonder how many "page views" my blog has had for the day.
I read an article last week entitled, "Does Life Online Give You 'Popcorn Brain'?" After reading it I thought I might need to curtail my on-line activity. My brain is constantly jumping from things I need to focus on to "when can I get on the computer next." But I made no clear commitment other then, "I'll try to do better."
The very next morning during our morning family devotions my husband read this verse, "The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can pray." (I Pet. 4:7) I felt instant conviction. I thought, "Lord, it's fine to step on my toes, but did you really have to stomp on my foot like that!"
Notice the end of the verse, "...so you can pray." I'd like to be able to say, "It will influence my ability to pray if I don't get a handle on this." However, if I'm completely honest it is already affecting my ability to pray. My lack of self-control is cluttering my mind and making it unfocused so that I'm anything but clear-minded. As a result it is affecting my relationship with God not to mention my family as well.
Pray for me as I set up new boundaries in my life. Prayer is the pathway of communication with God. I want to live connected with my Savior. All the connection with the rest of the world will matter little if I lose my connection with him.