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I'm an adoptive mother, and the following dialogue is one that often has run through my head: "Why is it so hard? These feelings of resentment and anger I experience. I hate it, and yet they resurface over and over. I lack empathy. And I fear I lack love." I've grappled with these thoughts over and over.
This is a struggle that many adoptive parents face, but they don't put it into words because they fear being judged for it. Also, they would never want to hurt their children because of something they see as a failure on their part. It is the struggle with bonding with their adopted children.
Over the past year I've contemplated many times writing on this subject but have backed away. Yet I feel it is a subject that needs addressed. More then once I've talked to adoptive mothers who are hurting inside because they feel they are failing their children. So with prayer and careful consideration of each word, I'm attempting to address a difficult topic this week. I invite you to join me each day.