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Who's on the throne?

I'm feeling battle weary this morning.  It's been a week of spiritual battles at our house. Beseeching God for a wandering son. A heart torn apart as tough love had to step forward. Grappling with whether we did the right thing. Seeking God's guidance for a son searching for God's will. Feeling his struggle. Deciphering when to speak or when to be quiet. Battling the wills with our younger two. Trying to reach their hearts. Feeling defeated more often then not. It's easy during these times to make it about me.  I was reminded of that when I read these words, "The idol of idols really is the idol of self.  We make it all about us.  We put ourselves in the center of the story." (Paul David Tripp, New Morning Mercies, August 3.) I want to say, "Why can't something come easy for once?"  I want certain outcomes because I would feel better.  I'd truly feel like my time had been better spent if God answered in a certain way.  Thi