He Sees Me
It was one of those nights. After collapsing in bed exhausted, I woke up at 1:30 a.m. unable to go back to sleep. My brain woke up, and it wouldn't shut off. I lay in the dark staring at the ceiling. Tears slipped quietly down my cheeks as I tried not to disturb my husband. My brain struggled to rationalize, my heart hurt, and my stomach was twisted tight. In moments like these I often think God put the Psalms in the Bible just for me. I can relate to so many of David's cries to the Lord. There are times when I feel alone. I feel like I am surrounded by the enemy, and I wonder where God is. (I know...probably not the words you would expect from a minister's wife. But I am human.) The dark of the night is when soul searching prayers are cried out. It's just me and the Lord. Last night after an hour or so, I knew I desperately needed sleep. I asked the Lord to please just let me have peace in knowing everything is in his hands. I wanted to feel his pres