Feeling like I live moment to moment
Unprepared for what lies ahead.
Missing control, neatness, and order
in my life.
Stomach often knotted,
Brain incapable of sorting it out.
Activities, Schooling, Appointments,
Needs, Demands, Conflicts,
Discipline and Training.
Laundry, Cooking, Cleaning,
Husband, Children, Friends.
Gathering into a growing, teetering mass.
And just one more pebble added
Will set the avalanche in motion.
I have nothing left.
I can't dig out.
I can't...do it.
I have no choice.
I am at the end of myself.
"Be still," he whispers.
"I brought you here."
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."
The knots begin to loosen.
"...when I am weak, then I am strong."
"What is impossible with men is possible with God."
Jesus and 12 disciples.
5000 men plus women and children.
Jesus says to his disciples,
"It would take 8 months wages."
The pressure mounts.
"What do you have?"
Might as well be, anyway.
"There are just these 5 small barley loaves and 2 fish."
"Bring them to me."
It's not enough...
But it was enough.
It was more than enough.
And with 12 baskets left over.
"My daughter, remember the loaves."
"I am enough.
More than enough."
"I can do everything through him who gives me strength."